I feel so apologetic towards Candy right now. I actually planned to meet her this afternoon, which is Sat, to go shopping. But the church band practice got postponed to 3, so i told her to either meet at 7, or we'll go out on Sun. Then when i woke the next day, i suddenly remembered that i'm meeting my cousins to go karaoke. Haha. So absent-minded of me. Sorry k, Candy.

Anyway, it was a long practice today. Abt 4hrs. And, sth very very coincidental happened. Haha, nvm, shan't talk abt it.

This is a very short entry. Hah. It's mainly to apologise to Candy.

Yay, i finally went out today after a 2 weeks' break. Haha. As mentioned in my previous blog, i left my hse at abt 9, went to kovan's mac for my breakfast and to pass time, then i took a bus down to the national lib and spent more than 2 hrs reading there. Liz msged lay kuan n I to let us know that she'll be late in meeting us cos she's going to see a doc. She ar..... she was down with fever on Mon, but she didn't go see a doc and went to work anyway on Tues. And she finally decided to go see one today. Anyway, i went to meet Lay Kuan and accompanied her to an interview at Katriel's. Have heard of the shop, but wasn't clear on what they sold. The things they sell are not really jewellery. Cos when i think of jewellery i think of stuff they sell at lee hwa and tiffany's. It's more of accessories? Earrings, necklaces. One difference being they are made of semi-precious stones, gemstones. Another significant difference is that they cost a lot more. A pair of earrings can reach $100. But they are semi-precious stones, uniquely designed by qualified designers. So, quite worth it la. And i told lay kuan that if she gets the job, i want to know how much her staff discount is. Haha.

After that, we went to Marina Sq in search of food. Spent a lot of time deliberating over what to eat. And we finally decided on Swensen's. Lay Kuan, who can be considered a big eater, decided to order the petit salad. She didn't believe that the serving size would be small. So she got a shock when she saw it. Haha. It was really petite. Then we ate our ice-creams. I ordered the sticky chewy choc. And it was soo sweet. Liz finally came to meet us after a while, and she ordered ice cream too, despite the fact that she had a cough. After chatting for a while, we went shopping! We actually planned to watch a movie. But Liz met us late, and Kuan was meeting her friends for dinner. So we went shopping instead. I finally bought a pair of shoes! haha. I rarely buy shoes. And they're a real nice pair of no-heel pumps. Liz bought a pair too. Then we went to another shop, where liz got tempted to buy a pair of wedges. They're v nice, and i love the colour! She spent a lot of time deliberating whether to buy them or not when she decided to walk ard and think abt it first. Haha. Felt a little bad towards the sales girl cos she was really nice and helpful.

Then, we went into this shop which was really charming. The wallpaper, decorations were all very Victorian. And the clothes. They have a lot of clothes with lace, and all the trimmings that make a girl feminine. I think Candy would not even want to step into the shop. Haha. But the clothes are all very sweet and feminine, very old victorian type. And they have nice shoes too. Liz bought a pair. Haha.

After that...... we went to PS. Cos kuan was meeting her friends there, and i wanted to go to spotlight to get sth.
Kuan met her friends, i got my stuff. Liz n I bought some bread n cheese outside PS where carrefour was having this French Village thing. Then it was time to go home.

Okay, halfway through this blog, I realised that I haven't blogged like this for quite some time. Describing what i did throughout the day in some details. I guess i was just cooped up at home for too long. A day out like this helped me recover from my brooding. Hah. I'm not like filled with happiness or all that bullshit la, but i'm feeling better. A little.

Living to get the approval of people around me is tiring. More than I ever thought it would be.

You Belong To Me - Jason Wade

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sun rise
From the tropic isle
Just remember, darling
All the while
You belong to me

See the marketplace in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember
When a dream appears
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle
When it’s wet with rain
Just remember
Till you're home again
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle
When it’s wet with rain
Just remember
Till you're home again
You belong to me

I love the simplicity of this song. Not so much of the lyrics, but the tune, and the simple, lonely sounding guitar. It's from the Shrek soundtrack, so it shouldn't be too unfamiliar to most ppl.3


There's going to be a electricity cut in my block of flats later todat from 0830 to 1730. So I'll have to wake up at 8 bathe, then perhaps go to the lib or sth. Cos i definitely cannot stand being at home without fan or aircon. I'll die of boredom and heat. Luckily i'm going out with liz n laykuan...

After reading Lay Kuan's blog, I have a question to ask. How many hours in our entire live, do we spend waiting? People who go to work daily or basically go out, by public transport have to wait for the bus, or train for at least 10mins (added up) everyday. The bus, especially. If there's a traffice jam during the peak hours, or an accident happened, the waiting might go on for half an hour or more. And just how many traffic jams will one be caught in in a lifetime?

We also spend time waiting for people. I spend a lot of time doing that. Haha, i'm not making any personal attacks, i'm just saying what I have experienced. Anyway, Singaporeans are famous for being late. Males and females alike. Pls stop saying that the females are always late. Cos most guys I know can be late for more than 10mins. I'm not going to make any comments about how I cannot imagine how some people are always late for 15mins and above.

We also wait for more than a dozen other things. Christians wait for the Lord's coming. We wait for food to be cooked, esp when we eat outside. We wait for a movie to start, a performance to begin. We wait for bothersome commercials to be over while watching tv prog. We wait for the red man to turn to the green man before crossing the road. The list is neverending. Everyday, we encounter new things to wait for.

Life, is all about waiting..

Yay, I'm finally online. I've been trying for the past few days in vain.

Until now, i still do not have much to say. haha. I lead a very boring life. Met SiTing while crossing the road on my way home from church on Sun. She was with this guy... her bf? hehe. Anyway, she seemed to be in a hurry, and she sms-ed me a while later. I have met quite a few of my old friends coincidentally this holiday. Vincent, SiTing, Esmond, Jane and Yuet Yee.

Okay, i don't have much to say already. Went to work on both Mon n today, which is tues. Woke up late this morning, so i took a cab down. Spent $15 on that. Reached there at abt 0845 and found Alice slping there. Haha. Okay, that's all i hafta say. Haha.

THis is such a big diff from what used to be. I could write long blogs abt what i did during the day. But now, I just no longer have the mood to do it. And i no longer have the "want" to talk abt what's making me unhappy. And I have been. Some. I can't really say what's making me unhappy, i just don't feel, you know, happy. I rarely feel like this. Okay, mayb some of my friends will say that I have a "smelly" face quite a few times. But i was juz fedup at some things or at least i was unhappy at something or someone. Now, i am truly unhappy n i don't know y. I feel that i don't have anybody i can truly talk to.

Okay, i sound like i'm self-pitying myself again. Heh.

I want to be able to act and live without having to worry abt what others think of me.

Yay, my sister finally uploaded the photos we took in Bangkok...

Our once in 10yrs family photo..
Have you ever seen such a BIG pepper grinder?
My sis n I on the plane there..




My mother n I..

Nth much happening these few days. Feeling super bored at home.

Went to Compass point after tuition on Tues to buy some things. And coincidentally, met Lay Kuan. been a long time since we've chatted, so we stood where we met and started talking abt a lot of things. Haha. I think we chatted for more than 30mins. Looking forward to going out with liz n her.

Esmond came to coffee club on Wed with his gf while i was working. I can only sae he hasn't changed at all. Haha. Bth him.

That's all i have to sae. V short right. This is e first time i'm having such a short entry. Just don't have the mood to talk abt mundane things.

My mother was juz talking abt cockroaches with my sis. And i really wonder y we are so scared of them. I mean, they have not done anything to scare us. Beetles too. I absolutely hate beetles, esp the sound they make when they land. That click click sound. Makes my heart pound like mad. Okay, anyway, y are we so afraid of them? I don't think anybody taught me or my sis to be scared of them. We have nv watched horror movies abt giant roaches or anything like that, my mother has nv displayed any fear of them before, certainly not my dad. It's like, usually ppl have to learn e way abt some things, like being careful of hot water, fires, etc. But cockroaches?? To put it objectively, they are just insects. An animal. But my hair always stands when i see one near me. At least i don't scream n run to another room when i see one like my sis. Haha. I only run when itz a flying cockroach.

Another thing, i can accept it if God wanted to create cockroaches. But why did he decide to make them so resistant to death? They can survive w/o a head. The thought of seeing one juz makes me wanna squirm. What if it's a flying headless cockroach? haha. Imagine that. My sis will scream her head off.

Actually, cockraoches shld be sth familiar to us right? We've seen them all our lives, since we were young. Every house would at least have a cockroach. So y on earth are we so afraid of them? I rmb i didn't use to be so scared of them when i was younger. It was as i grew older that my fear got greater. Mayb my sis influenced me or sth.

Okay, think that's all for my fear of cockroaches theory. Feeling abit tired now. But i don't have to wake up early tmr. So itz okay.

Yay. Just went out with joselin, elvina n corrin to town.

Went to coffee club to meet them cos all 3 of them were working. Haha. Went to eat long john's after buying the movie tickets. It was super cold, the air con was blowing v cold air out that even made e tissue somersault. Haha. Watched the 40 yr old virgin, a co*k of a show. Pun fully intended. Seriously, the show was crazy. And the ending, nth can beat that, man. U'll have to watch it to fully understand the co*kness of the show. haha.

Saw the trailer for the show Transporter 2. Super shiok. I love the car man. And that Jason guy seemed cool. I'll watch the show juz for the car alone. Ha. But Transporter 1 wasn't that nice. So... dunno. Depends on whether there's sb to accompany me. Heh.

After the movie we went to nydc to have a drink. And, u noe what. The movie was screened in the same theatre as the one where i watch corpse bride last Fri. And the seat we sat in nydc was the same as the one i sat at last Fri too. So qiao3 right. Ha. Sat in nydc for abt an hr b4 leaving.

Corrin was quite high tonight. Haha. But i hope she's okay n we managed to cheer her up la. Just make the decision that will make u happy.

Had fun tonight. Now that i think abt it, i don't really feel like quitting when i start sch. Quite she3 bu4 de2 them.. Think i shld be able to juggle my schedule la right.

I am very bored!! Super, extremely bored.Ppl who might be yearning for some free time off either from work or studies might want to kill me when they see this, but seriously, I'm bored. This haven't happened to me in a long time. I have no idea y i feel like this. in the past i could always find sth to occupy my time. But now, i seriously have nth to do. I've done everything on my to-do list for today by 2pm. So starting from that time, i was starting to look for things to do. Wanted to play games online, but the com kept hanging. So there goes my plan. There isn't anything nice on tv right now, somehow i don't really feel motivated to read a novel right now, and there isn't anybody online that i really want to talk to. So i really don't know what to do. In abt an hr's time i'll try to go slp, but i don't know if i'll be able to.

Somebody, help me!!!

Went to my ahma's hse on Sun. None of my other relatives were there, so i spent the whole day watching tv. haha. my ahma cooked nasi lemak, which meant that i've eaten that for dinner twice in a row cos my mother made that for dinner on Sat. Haha. But i still like. And my cousin's getting ROM on 3rd dec! quite excited cos she's the first one. And we are all like planning what to wear already. Ha.

Went to work on Mon afternoon. There was a customer who looked like, or so they said. And they kept giggling and teasing me over it! esp fiona n jason. Everytime fiona looked at her she would laugh. Then jason came up with this story abt showing the customer my half of a medallion cos we are long lost sisters or sth. Stupid right. Bth. Then in the night, i gave jason a stupid expression. Then he started saying i look like garfield. Really hor..... haha.

Went for tuition on Tues afternoon, then to tamp to jocelin's hse to play mahjong. On the way to tamp met Jane! So coincidental. She was on her way home from sch. Haven't seen her in a long time. Haha. Waited super long for the bus to jocelin's hse. Started playing ard 1930. And that stupid brandon won so many times, the turn was stuck at his turn. So it took us more than an hr to finish one wind. Then during dinner, we really laughed our heads off. That brandon la! Whatever i say, he muz have the last word. #&%$#! haha. Anyway, had lotsa fun that night, cos haven't laughed so much n so heartily in a long time. Corrin's bf came to fetch her, so i lom pang. It wasn't really on the way, cos corrin lives in pasir ris. haha. Anyway, reached home at abt 1230.

I wanna blog, n i noe i shld, but i juz feel so lazy to. Contradicting? When i think of how i have to put all my thoughts into words, and hafta type them out, and correct them if my english is in pieces, I juz dun fell like blogging already. Haha. Feel tired, but if i don't grab this chance to blog, I don't know when my kookoo internet connection will work again. So.... think i'll juz sae briefly lo.

Stayed at home on Sun while my parents n sis went to my grandmas' hse, cos i was tired. Ard evening time, my cousin n 2 of my aunts came home with my parents. Gave a shock. Haha. Not really sure y they popped over, but they left after a while.

Went to work on Mon. There's a new girl, Fiona. Quite pretty. Nth much that day. Juz that there was this angmoh. He's super cute. As in what he did, not his looks. Not that he wasn't cute. Haha. Blabbering. Anyway, he ordered cranberry turkey ham with mustard n cheese, without ham. I didn't think much abt that order until i saw the dish. There's like only the cranberry sauce, lettuce, tomatoes cheese n bread. Anyway, he took a bite, and gave a weird face and i knew sth was wrong. then he asked me if there was turkey in it. Of cos i said no la. It turned out that he thought turkey ham meant turkey, and ham. 2 different kinda meat. But it simply meant ham made of turkey. I told him that, n he was like a lil shocked n asked how they made that. I got a double shock at that, n was little stumped for an answer. Then i juz told him that same way as they made chicken n pork ham. Haha. Funny lo.

Went to work on tues during a weird timing, 11-3 cos i couldn't work 12-4. Had tuition at 4. Realise i have a tendency to forget umbrellas. Cos i borrowed an umbrella from my student abt 2 weeks ago so i brought it along to coffee club. In e morning, i had to go back to my hse for it cos i forgot abt it. Then after going down to e mrt station to buy my concession i realised i left it in coffee club. So had to go back to get it. Then, i left it in the cab i was taking. Lucky e driver saw e umbrella in time. So that was how i forgot the umbrella 3 times in a day. Haha.

Slacked at home the entire day on Wed. Was actually looking forward to it ever since Sun cos i knew i wouldn't have enough slp till Tues night. But, it was highly overrated by myself, except for e slp part, cos i slept soundly till 11. Made pasta with the squid ink linguine we bought in Thailand. Tasted not too bad. Oh ya, i had a revelation in Thailand. Brinjal is not an English word! Ppl who knew that beforehand pls laugh at me. Ppl who only knows it now can go into shock like i did. And ppl who don't even know what brinjal is, r u even Singaporean? Brinjal is a malay word for eggplant. Know what eggplant is? that Long purple veg.
Packed my room a little on Wed, but i still have a long way to go. Need to find a place to put my bags neatly n still be able to get them easily. Any suggestions?

Worked the whole day on Thurs. 12-1030. Realised that pay for a cook is $6. I am seriously considering being a cook right now.

I have a habit of going somewhere in the morning, then going to hougang for tuition n back to that place i went to in the morn in the evening. It has happened twice. first time was when i went to work, then to tuition, then back to marina. Today, which is Fri, or rather yday, I went to Suntec, then to orchard to cut my hair, then to tuition, then back to orchard to meet rena n cc.

The reason i went to suntec was cos body shop was having warehse sales, n i spent over 70bucks there. Then went to meet my sis to go to toni & guy where her fren was working. Cut my hair.. a bit different la. Esp my back. Went for tuition after that. Then went to orchard. Met them at PS. Then we went to cine to catch a movie. Spent some time deliberating over which movie to watch. In e end, we tossed a coin n decided to watch corpse bride. Haha. rushed down to yoshinoya for dinner, and cheng was feeling stressed throughout the dinner cos she was really feeling the pressure to finish dinner in 20mins. Haha. the serving size there is getting smaller.

The show's not bad. Quite funny. I like the part where this dead man's jaw dropped to the floor cos of when in shock we drop our jaws right. So cos he's a skeleton, his dropped right to the floor. Still can't imagine johnny depp as the main char. Seems so out of character for him to play such a character. After the movie, we went to BK, sat there for a while, then we went to NYDC to eat desserts. Cheng suddenly became inspired to talk in Eng with a super weird slang with an angmoh sitting right beside her. So... haha. Went home after that.

Yeah! I'm back! haha, actually, i was back last Sat but didn't have the chance to blog. Either that, or my internet connection was down.

Anyway, shall briefly tell u what i did in Bangkok last week. Most of it will be abt the food. Haha, of cos the shopping's good. Woke up at 5.30 in the morning on Tues morning cos we had to check in at abt 730 at e airport. Bathed, did some last min packing, then left for the airport. On our way there the taxi driver started saying abt how he was supposed to go to phuket last dec for hols. N all of us know what happened last dec. Yes, the tsunami. In e end, his son bought a car in his name, so he had to cancel his trip so as to process the purchase of the car. Which is super heng, cos he would probably be killed if he went.

Checked in, then we went to eat breakfast. Actually wanted to eat at Mac's but we couldn't find the one at T1, so we ate at BK. Then we started shopping at e duty free shops, until it was time to board the plane.
When we reached Bangkok it was 1030. Early right. We went to the hotel, rested for a while, then we went shopping! Ate lunch first, at a foodcourt. The beef soup v nice. haha. Then we shopped till 6sth. Didn't buy anything that day. My sis did lah. Actually, i did buy "inner beauty", but my mother paid for them so not counted. Haha. After shopping, we went to this seafood restaurant. The food's real nice, and the service's v good. After eating we went back to the hotel, rested, watch tv then slp.

Woke up in e morning to eat breakfast. Woke up at abt 6sth sg time. Shiok right. Somemore i didn't have a good night's slp that night. From abt 4 in e morning i kept waking up at 10min intervals. Cham right. Kept yawning that day while shopping. Haha. Then we went to this building called bobae towers to shop. they sell stuff wholesale, ppl usually buy at least a dozen at a time. Of cos, the more u buy the cheaper it is lah. My mother spent quite a lot, cos the 3 of us esp my sis n my mum bought a lot of "inner beauty", haha. Then we went shopping at another place, some high class place we we only window shopped. Their Birkenstocks were seeling at 30% discount, shiok right, was a bit tempted to buy la. haha. Then we went shopping at a building next to it. Bought earrings, a bag which all 3 of us can use, n several things la. Then juz as we were concluding our shopping in that building, we realised we left our big bag of "inner beauty" in the previous bldg. So my sis n i went back there to enquire at e information counter. Then we followed the security guard to the staff only office to find out that we had to present our passport for some form of identification, and to our dismay, we didn't have our passports with us. So i went back to look for my parents while my sis stayed behind. Quickly walked back to the place my parents were waiting, got my passport, and rushed back there, tho at a slower pace than b4, haha. By the time everything was finished, i think all the security staff knew what had happened. haha.

After eating something at a cafe we went to another bldg to shop. My sis bought a lot of stuff again. Haha. Then we went to this v big supermarket. Bought some stuff, then we went to eat liao. The thing is, the place we wanted to go to was further than we expected. We walked for abt 30mins while carrying those heay stuff. Anyway, along the way, we bought dunkin' donuts! Haha. Been wanting to eat tt. Anyway, after a long walk to our destination, we finally sat down in a Jap restaurant to eat. After eating we went in search of a tailor to make my sis n i suits. Haha. shiok sia. Did it at e first shop we entered. Haha. the whole suit costs $131. Okay right. tailor-made leh. Buying a ready made one at G2000 would need $80 lo. After taking our measurements n everything we went back to our hotel.

Didn't wake up to eat breakfast in the hotel on Thurs morning. Cos we were going to eat dim sum in e afternoon! haha. Shopped for a while before gg to eat. Went to the Grand Hyatt. The place v class leh, luckily, we were going to eat the dim sum not the int'l buffet cos there was a dress code for the buffet. Ha. Anyway, we ordered peking duck.Yay! haha. Super nice. Aiya, everything there was nice la. Eat there v shiok. Haha. And it all cost under S$100. Cheap right. If we ate in Sg it'll cost a lot more. After eating, we went shopping again! This time , i did buy things. But this adidas goofy top, 2 more tops. And 2 earrings which i didn't dare to tell my father e price of, cos he'll exclaim at e price of it. Haha. After that we went to Isetan, then went to the supermarket. Bought some stuff again. Then we went to eat steamboat at Coca restaurant. Took the train back, then my sis n i went for fitting for our suits, then we went to a internet cafe where i entered the previous blog.

On Friday, I had breakfast at the hotel. Then we went shopping again. Bought 2 more tops, and a shorts. By that time, my mum, my sis n i were watching our spending cos we were going to be broke. After shopping, we went to Sheraton hotel to eat dinner! Ate at a Italian restaurant where we sat by the river al fresco. Then while we were eating appetisers, we suddenly saw fireworks! Super shiok lo. Itz like right out of a movie, u know, eating by a river at a high class restaurant, and there's fireworks. Too bad the company's wrong. Haha. Anyway, we went into e restaurant when it started to threaten to rain. The food's not bad lah, juz tt e serving size was v big, and cos there was free flow of bread, n the bread was really nice, so we were super full at e end of dinner. Ordered tiramisu for dessert. quite nice la. Went back to the hotel after dinner. On e way home there was atraffic jam. The driver even asked us to get down to take a train back cos we might be stuck in e jam for abt an hr. haha. But we decided to continue la. in e end it only took 30mins.

On Sat, we woke up and started packing our stuff. Then we went to collect my sis n my suits. Then we went to the weekend market and shopped. But it was super hot that day la, so we were all sweating like pigs. Bought quite a lot of things, accessories n stuff. Decided to stop shopping halfway cos we couldn't stand the heat anymore. Then we went to Emporium, where we bought several things more, my mother bought v beautiful roses. Then we went back to the hotel, packed our stuff n waited for our ride to the airport.

Was in a bad mood at the airport, shan't mention y. But i had a bad flight back la. My ear was blocked so seriously my neck was aching. Anyway, it was good to be back in Singapore where everything seems so familiar. Reached home at 12, unpacked, stuffed my clothes into my cupboard, threw some of my stuff on my table, and went to slp.

Okay that's all for my trip. All in all, i had a great time shopping. Thank God for keeping the pickpockets, cheating taxi drivers and everything else other tourists complain abt away from us. When we were there, my sis n i kept scolding our father, cos he kept refusing the carry the shopping bags. I know, most of them are our stuff, but he's a man. He can help right? Ask us to take still okay, push to my mother to take somemore. So pek chek with him sometimes. Haiz.

Anyway, while there, i noticed a lot of middle-aged ang moh guys with v pretty, long-haired, dressed sexily Thai girls. Itz practically a trend there. I think they're either married, or the girls are social escorts. Don't misunderstand, i have nth against them, it was juz an observation. Itz a little like Singaporeans maryying Vietnamese. Don't u think?

Anyway, ppl, don't come asking me for souveneirs kay. Cos i spent every single cent i had there. So didn't have any excess cash for souveneirs. If i bought for one person, i'll have to buy for everybody else. So except for the 3 ppl, who shld noe hu they are, i was heartless this time n didn't buy anything as souveniers. Hehe. Don't blame me hor. But i don't know who u shld blame.